San Diego

So the last few days has not been good for me. I feel as though life crashes down on me all at once, I begin to feel distant from my friends, family, and acquaintances. Im normally not one to be down on life but I'm in a rut. I've had very strange dreams, that I can't explain to add on to it. Someone from the past has come back to town and when they did everything went downhill. I feel as though some friendships are being forgotten and some are being ditched. Pet peeve: when you make plans and then people bail. I've realized that some of my good friends are no longer that great of friends, especially my guy friends, the ones that were there for me throughout the 8 years I've known them. I guess thats life though and people come and go as they say. I also haven't been getting along with my family as much either, I need my space and unfortunately living at home again doesn't allow me to have as much. I feel suffocated and trapped in my room, with nothing to do but think about my stresses and worries. Another thing that has bothered me is for the first time in my life, I have been more unhappy dancing. It sucks that certain people can ruin that for you, Im sick of getting treated badly and like a 7 year old. It really sucks and I can only keep how I truly feel inside for just a little longer.....I need my BFF' s badly...which is a good segue into my topic. SAN DIEGO!

I will be in San Diego Wednesday to spend a week with one of my best friends Breanna. Im so excited to be with her on her bday as well as to just spend some quality time with her. For a whole week I wont have stresses or worries, all I'll be thinking about is fun in the sun!!!! haha This vaca couldn't have come at a better time and I hope when I get back everything gets better. I bought a new book today called "A Piece of Cake" Im pretty excited to read about this womans life. Hopefully that keeps me occupied while Im flying, because I have a great fear of flying...ahhhhhhhhhh!!!

Well sorry to be a Debbie Downer I just needed to write down my frustrations. Pity me ahah jkjk

Later alligators!